Day of Beauty... then pain oh so much pain both physical and emotinal
Today I got an early mother’s day present. I GOT MY HAIR DID. I had to keep telling myself that I can’t keep feeling guilty! I did have fun and enjoy myself. It was nice to get my hair done. I took my mom so she could get her hair done as well. I don’t care what anyone says about going to beauty schools they did an awesome job, and it was so much cheaper than going to a salon! So here are the before and after photos, yea it’s a big change.
Many of you may not know but I have been in a lot of pain for a long time. When I went to the doctor a little bit ago he said that I have scoliosis. They are wondering if that is what is causing my migraines. My hips are offset and that is causing a heck of a lot of pain and compression on my spine. Doing the everyday things that I do kill me every day. I do them though because it’s apart of being a mom. Well today I had an appointment with the Orthopedic Specialist. He was not happy with me. He told me that I should have come in when the pain first started because now it’s really bad. Right now my lower back is so tight and compressed that he doesn’t know exactly what he can do until we can get it a little better. So he told me he was gonna give me two shots in my back and they would help get me to that point. What he didn’t tell me was it was cortisone injections. OH MY HOLY COW that hurt, like I would rather give birth again hurt! I mean yea he told me that it was gonna hurt but I guess I didn’t think it was gonna hurt that bad I mean heck I get weekly allergy shots and they don’t bother me lol. He also told me that he wants me to stop picking up Bradley. I mean yea I get it he is almost 6 years old but when he has his night terrors and is screaming out for me what do I do just let him scream… um no not an option, I guess Joe will have to help me or maybe if Bradley is still on the bed I just cuddle with him on the bed till he calms down. The doctor doesn’t want me lifting pretty much anything… um hello I am a mother how do I get around that? He also said no bending, again umm please explain to me how not to bend because I have no idea how I’m gonna accomplish that. The doctor wants me to come in next week again for injections…. Honestly I don’t know if I can go through that again… but thinking about the other option, surgery, I think I may just have to suck it up buttercup and deal with the pain to avoid surgery. When I got done I had to sit in my car with mom for a good 15 minutes before I could even drive home. I was told to take it easy (yea right I have two kids and a husband is this doc insane). My back hurts so much it feels like it’s on fire. I can feel throbbing with my heartbeat in my back. I hate this! I have to keep telling myself that I have to take care of myself so I can be the best mommy that I can be. I am trying to understand that taking care of myself does not make me a bad mom. Anyone that knows me knows that I put my kids first they are my life and my world. Without them I would be so lost. I guess I am still processing everything the doctor said, and that is gonna take some time.
As you can see they had to do the injections close to my spine. This makes me even more scared.
